just STOP.

how much worse can it be huh?

Case 1
Semalam one of my colleague, beramah mesra with me..
She said my baju kurung on that day is beautiful. She like the colour.
Tapi for me, baju kurung tu biasa biasa aja.
Baju tu quite new since I gain weight after marriage sampai terpaksa buat baju baru. hakhak.
I told her that fact and she said, badan I tak nampak macam naik pun. Lied.
So, she suggested a tip. She said, nabi Muhammad ada berpesan, sekiranya mahukan badan isteri cantik (read: tidak gemok), jangan masuk kan mani husband ke dalam rahim isteri.
Saya yang jahil ni memang tak tahu ada ke hadis yang begitu so I just listen.
Then saya balas semula, I want a baby so my husband mani is important for me ;p
After that, bermula lah sembang-sembang yang kalau boleh I memang tak mahu bincangkan.
I know, she has a very good intention by suggesting this and that but I just dont feel comfortable to discuss about it.
Sudah ramai yang beri tips dan cadangan dan panduan sampai at one point, I feel sick about it.
I just don't wanna stress out myself.
I want it to be naturally. Yes, I memang ada usaha.
Tapi tak perlu untuk heboh kepada sesiapa kan?

Case 2
One of my colleague get pregnant. She just get married on May 2011.
I know it from one of my close friend.
I feel happy for her and Congratulate her todaY.
and she look back at me with a SYMPATHETIC look, which I really dont need.

How much worse can it be?
Like I always say to my dear students, 'the real life is really mean..'
I'm okay. but the people make me stress..
Kalau saya pregnant, alhamdulillah..
Kalau belum pun tak apa since I'm still young.
Sampai kadang kala nak jadi rude.
Please put some respect.
I just don't wanna talk about it anymore.
SAD.