depressed.

derita.. mentally illnesS. should I go for a check up?

semuanya pada hari Isnin.

Motivation down hingga ke lantai..
Cuba untuk bertabah hati namun kadang kala kalah jua dengan emosi..

hepI MondaY all.

garang tau..

Suami saya sejak akhir-akhir ni dah jadi garang.
Lepas tu dia asyik nak guna ayat "sebab pembawakan budak.."
Setakat yang saya tahu, saya belum lagi BAWA budak..
Mungkin dia yang bawa budak kot sebab perut sudah makin maju ke depan. hekhekhek.

alaa.. takde pulak picture terkini org yang pembawakan budak tu untuk dipaste kan di sini..

siang mengantuk malam berjaga

Lately, suami saya siang-siang pergi kerja sampai petang..
Balik rumah, di sebelah malam pulak ada conference call with US boses.
Kelmarin ada conference call, semalam pun ada, malam ni ada dan esok pun ada.
Last sekali, baru dapat tahu yang my husband need to work in US hour start from tonight until further notice.
He doesnt have to go to the office anymore.
He can work from home or specifically work from my parent house. wee!!

So, tak lama lagi boleh la saya nyanyikan lagu, "nenek nenek si bongkok 3, siang mengantuk malam berjaga.." kepada si dia kan ;p

Monday.

Helo.
I dah sampai Ipoh ni.
Seperti biasa, naik ETS pukul 9pm dari kl-central.
Memang normally, I akan tidor sepanang perjalanan. Tidor-tidor ayam.
Tapi tadi seriously tidor macam orang mabuk.
Dari mula train sampai hingga train berhenti saya tidor tak sedar diri ;)
Adakah ini disebabkan penangan laksa Kelantan yang dimakan sebelum perjalanan tadi?? hakhak.
Tapi seriously SEDAP bangat laksa Kelantan yang dimasak oleh beliau, sempat ke rumah Pn.Zarin untuk beraya petang tadi..

By the way, esok sudah kerja.. Walaupun rindu husband sangat tapi tetap perlu jalani hari dengan TABAH. Happy MondaY all!!

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

suka lagu ni semenjak kali pertama dengar..



Enjoy your weekend...

should I tell him?

hye.
I do not contact my husband todaY since morning.
I'm not avoiding him but I just didnt feel like talking..
dan kebetulan pulak my cell phone kehabisan battery sebab saya lupa nak charge malam semalam.
I know, he tried to call me few times.
I know, he feels worry about me..

The think is, I went somewhere alone after work, without asking his permission..
and I'm not ready yet to tell him where did I go and who did I meet..
and I really not ready to tell him or anybody something that I know today..
something bad and sad..

who should I turn on to..? *crying.....

just STOP.

how much worse can it be huh?

Case 1
Semalam one of my colleague, beramah mesra with me..
She said my baju kurung on that day is beautiful. She like the colour.
Tapi for me, baju kurung tu biasa biasa aja.
Baju tu quite new since I gain weight after marriage sampai terpaksa buat baju baru. hakhak.
I told her that fact and she said, badan I tak nampak macam naik pun. Lied.
So, she suggested a tip. She said, nabi Muhammad ada berpesan, sekiranya mahukan badan isteri cantik (read: tidak gemok), jangan masuk kan mani husband ke dalam rahim isteri.
Saya yang jahil ni memang tak tahu ada ke hadis yang begitu so I just listen.
Then saya balas semula, I want a baby so my husband mani is important for me ;p
After that, bermula lah sembang-sembang yang kalau boleh I memang tak mahu bincangkan.
I know, she has a very good intention by suggesting this and that but I just dont feel comfortable to discuss about it.
Sudah ramai yang beri tips dan cadangan dan panduan sampai at one point, I feel sick about it.
I just don't wanna stress out myself.
I want it to be naturally. Yes, I memang ada usaha.
Tapi tak perlu untuk heboh kepada sesiapa kan?

Case 2
One of my colleague get pregnant. She just get married on May 2011.
I know it from one of my close friend.
I feel happy for her and Congratulate her todaY.
and she look back at me with a SYMPATHETIC look, which I really dont need.

How much worse can it be?
Like I always say to my dear students, 'the real life is really mean..'
I'm okay. but the people make me stress..
Kalau saya pregnant, alhamdulillah..
Kalau belum pun tak apa since I'm still young.
Sampai kadang kala nak jadi rude.
Please put some respect.
I just don't wanna talk about it anymore.
SAD.

Debaran.

hi all.
Kita rasa berdebar nak isi borang pertukaran..
You all agak-agak, this time permohonan kita berjaya x??